I’m a big karma person. I don’t know why, the idea has just always resonated with me. It’s not like it’s a harmful thought – put good out into the world, and good will come back to you.
I don’t know what I’ve done to manifest all the bad that’s happened this year, but I’m really sorry. I’m genuinely so sorry.
It’s not to discount all the good that’s happened, because there has been a heck of a lot, and five years down the line, all the bad stuff is going to be a distant memory and the good stuff will be what stands out. But right now it freaking sucks.
Clearly my pattern with this blog has been to be like “I’m back!” and then I disappear for months. I have so many draft posts to finish and so many ideas and things I want to do, but life kind of kicked me in the ass the last couple of months. I have had to focus on myself and my family and just not care about anything else. Nothing else has been important.
So I really want to say that I’ll be back now, but maybe that’s just annoying and I sound like I’m trying to convince you that I care about this mission. And I do, so much! Having this outlet for me and to share my experience is so important to me. I spend so much time working – oh yeah, I’m back at work too – or taking care of others or working on my mental health that I just need something small that makes ME happy and fulfilled. Writing has always been my thing, and doing it for personal reasons needs to be at the top of my list.
I have some intentions for 2020 and I’m looking forward to going into the year with positivity and hope. I’m going to kick 2020’s ass!
I’m looking forward to sharing more and getting out all the things I’ve been working on on here. When I tell you that I’ve had good reason to be gone, I mean it. Things have been shit. However, as you’ll see in my 2020 intentions (coming soon), I’m ready and willing to finally fulfill MY wants once everyone in my life is healthy and happy.