Okay, here we go again. I could make excuses or I could just not.
I started this blog with the hope to inspire people by sharing stories and insight and advice. I also love fashion and vintage shopping and my cats so I was going to sprinkle a little bit of that in too. I was doing pretty well mentally at that time. A LOT! of stuff has happened since I first started this blog. I tried to focus on just like, staying alive (sorry, that’s dark) and getting myself through each day. I didn’t really feel like I could give this much attention.
Now, I’m slightly unemployed, starting to get in a proper exercise routine, and have so much TIME! I have been thinking about post idea after post idea but I wasn’t super into anything I was coming up with.
I’ve been doing a lot of reading and watching YouTube and getting re-inspired (I really want to share the channels I’ve been loving and find motivating – will put this on the list of future blogs) and I’ve decided that I’m back and I want to do things a little differently.
I am still going to share my life living with a mental illness – that’s a given. I want to give a different kind of insight into my life though. I want to show you a lot more. I want this to be a place where I’m being held accountable and able to share all the things I love, and share how I truly get through the day. I don’t sit there and tell myself inspiring things and remind myself of what I’ve been through all the time (I do this when I’m trying to sleep HAHAHAA WHAT IS SLEEP?!) so why am I going to do that here.
One of the many “tasks” I’ve given myself is to write myself a list of things to do every day. It could be things as simple as feeding my cats, or myself, or cleaning, or buying things I need, or even to shower (we can talk about this later lol). I’ve also REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to start YouTube and vlog/chat but I still don’t have the courage to go there completely. I also want to write a book but can’t really focus on what I want that to be about. So I’m going to use this blog to share my life in more ways than I’ve been doing and I hope people enjoy that! I know I am obsessed with watching people live their lives and reading about their lives and sharing what they learn along the way. I’m not necessarily looking for fame or fortune or to become an “influencer,” – I mean, ideally, this would be my job – I’m just trying to conjure up the things I want in life and just freaking GOING FOR IT for once in my damn life. I mean, I’m 28, I’m having a crisis of not liking where I’m at, and I’m sick of just sulking about how things aren’t the way I want them to be. You know? Like every single person who has the career I want has been like “Why me?” or “I’ll never make it!” and they DO!
My goal at this point is to post either every day, or every other day. Ideally, I’d be posting something every day because I want this to actually reach people and consistency is key, folks.
So let’s ride this accountability train together!
I hope you enjoy my not-very-glamorous-seriously-hanging-on-by-my-vintage-blazer-buttons-what-the-heck-am-I-doing life!
I will be posting again very shortly with a rundown of my day today.